i’ve been insanely busy, as usual, grad school is still kicking my ass. although i think i may come out of this semester with an A, B, B or maybe B, B, B. not sure yet, it really all depends on my final projects.
The craziest thing about this semester is that I have a pretty fantab boyfriend AND HE’S A HISTORY MAJOR…IN THE GRAD PROGRAM.
and it really happened out of nowhere to be honest. he was part of the history group or what i like to call them, “the history boys”. we kinda all started going out to get margaritas after our civil war seminar on tuesdays. i was the only girl, but it was nice company. especially when we all needed to talk out loud about school and bounce ideas off each other.
well, they’re all pretty good looking but i wasn’t looking for a boyfriend at the time, but i realized how cute Sam was, and how smart he was. how nice of a dresser he was. and then one day he texted me “hey you should come by the library to visit” (he works as a GA at the reference desk). when i got the text, i got butterflies! so i did visit him, and then i realized i was visiting him everyday. i finally got the nerve to ask him on a Cookout date one day after he got off of work. and he said YES!
so it was the first time we hung out by ourselves. of course, i look at the glass half empty and i’m thinking “theres no way he likes me, he’s probably just being nice”. but turns out he did like me!
about a week later we went on a date and a few days after that we were official.
its crazy though, i did not expect this. i forgot what those feelings were: of romance, flirting, butterflies, love. i did have those things in the past with my ex, especially after being together for five years. but when we broke up, its like it had never happened. almost like i had woken up from a dream and our relationship vanished once i opened my eyes. i mean, i know i did date my ex for five years, but post breakup, its like the memories get fuzzy, you can’t even remember how things used to be with that person. it really is like they never existed. you can’t even imagine yourself interacting with them like you used to. its kinda sad.
but being with Sam, I remember those emotions, so I know what I have with him is real. its strange, i can’t seem to put it in words.
i’m weird, i know.
but seriously, Sam is the best thing that has happened to me this year. I did not expect it and it just gets better every day.
I think I’ve found the love of my life!